For the next month I am going to be M.I.A. This is because I am going to surround myself with school work. At the end of the month I will be back to tell you all about what happened and how everything turned out. This is it, the home stretch, when this month is over I will be done with my schooling. Wow, at the end of this month I will be done. That is scary and amazing at the same time. But it's not as scary as me constantly thinking I will not get my work done. This really scares the shit out of me. Well it is now 10:41 pm and I have to be up at 6 to get a shower.
Goodnight and have a fun month.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Things I am looking forward to...
Over the next month I will be doing nothing but school work. However, when April 15 rolls around let the parties start. The first thing I am going to do when I am done is 2 Irish Car Bombs in a row. Then I will party till I get sick and the next day eat McDonalds. Later on around July maybe I am going to take a road trip somewhere out of this state and it will be at least two weeks long. I really have nothing else in mind to do but I will not let my free time go to waste, believe me.
My Sunny Dispositioin
A friend wrote me a message today on facebook which made me think about my attitude lately and it was not good. For the past 6 months to a year my attitude toward life has been going down hill. I have grown more and more cynical and pessimistic every week. This fact scares me.
Here is the thing, I love life, I really do. However, I have been putting on masks ever since the start of 2009. I do this so people don't think anything is wrong because nobody wants to hear me complain about myself blah blah blah. But the sad thing is, somewhere in the middle of then and now I have called my own bullshit and just threw the masks aside. The bad thing though is I didn't help my out look on life, I just lived with my attitude. On top of this I didn't realize how I was acting toward the people I care most about. I know now I was hurting some and just becoming rude and just plain not nice to most. This makes me sick. These people have stood by me for a long time and have helped me get through hard times but now when they need me I am nowhere to be found. Yes I am ultra busy with my student teaching internship, but they are my friends and I have been a dick and there is no excuss.
I am a dick and I am sorry
Here is the thing, I love life, I really do. However, I have been putting on masks ever since the start of 2009. I do this so people don't think anything is wrong because nobody wants to hear me complain about myself blah blah blah. But the sad thing is, somewhere in the middle of then and now I have called my own bullshit and just threw the masks aside. The bad thing though is I didn't help my out look on life, I just lived with my attitude. On top of this I didn't realize how I was acting toward the people I care most about. I know now I was hurting some and just becoming rude and just plain not nice to most. This makes me sick. These people have stood by me for a long time and have helped me get through hard times but now when they need me I am nowhere to be found. Yes I am ultra busy with my student teaching internship, but they are my friends and I have been a dick and there is no excuss.
I am a dick and I am sorry
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